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Always and Forever – Part 4

Always and Forever – Part 4

by December 1, 2014 0 comments

“Ouch!” something hit on the face. When I looked down, I saw a cute teddy bear beside my left foot. I picked it up and saw Nathan smiling at me.
“You’re so sad Lindz. Don’t worry; I’ll follow you in the Philippines after a month. I’ll be there…I promise.” He touched my face and continued smiling.
“I’m not sad…I’m just thinking of something serious.” I answered.
“Like?”
“Like…like where we are going to eat coz I’m starving.” I gave a small laugh and took his hand. We walk to a restaurant nearby and ordered our food.
“When are you going home?” he asked.
It took a while before I answered, “Tomorrow…”
“Wow, that‘s so soon…well, why don’t you have dinner at my place tonight?”
“Of course… I would love to”
That night, after putting all my things in my bag and prepare everything, I went to Nathan’s apartment. A part of me tells me that it is not the right thing to do but another part of me says follow your heart because it will make you happy.
“Welcome to my place” Nathan greeted me with a smile as I enter his apartment.
“It’s beautiful…. and neat.” I said as we move to his kitchen.
I was surprised that he prepared a lot of food for both of us.” Can we eat all of this? This is so much Nate.” I said.
“I know, it’s just because you’re special…” he smiled and then we began to eat. We chatted happily as we eat and talk about anything that comes in our minds.
After eating, we sat at the balcony of his apartment overlooking the beach. We were silent for a while as we stare at the beach. And then, I gently took his hand and pull him up. I put his hands on my waist and put mine on his shoulders.
“Are you crazy? There is no music…” he said but we gently glide on the floor.
“I don’t care…”
I leaned on his chest as we continued to dance. Tears were streaming down my face hoping that his memory would come back. It is the last thing I could remember to help him regain his memory.
After a while, he stopped. I looked at him and saw that he was closing his eyes, and then, he opened it and smiled to me. I smiled back and then, like it was the most natural thing in this world, we kissed.
A kiss full of love. The sweetest kiss we ever shared. And the last thing I can remember was when my feet left the floor as he carried me to his bedroom.

***
I gently opened my eyes and stared at the man lying right beside me. He was peacefully sleeping. I get up as slowly as I can. I kissed him gently on the cheeks and moved to the bathroom. I turned on the shower. Cold water washed my warm tears as I move my face just below the shower.
We made love last night. I felt guilty about it but the memory of it will remain in my mind and my heart forever. I will treasure the memory of it to the deepest part of my heart that I can remember it even if my memory slowly fades away.
After taking a bath, I put on my clothes and prepare to leave. I write a short letter and put it on his bedside table. I stared at him for the last time, and with the last kiss, I left.
***
(Nathan)

 

I woke up and began to stretch. I smiled as I remembered what happened last night. But when I turned to my side, I was surprised to know that I am alone in my bed.
I immediately got up and look around.
“Lindsey? Where are you?” I went to the bathroom but it’s empty. Then, I began to panic. I dressed up as fast as I could. I was about to go when I noticed a piece of paper on my bedside table. I move towards the table and read Lindsey’s letter.

I know by the time you read my letter, I’m already gone. I know how much it hurts for you but we’re better off this way. I have always loved you even from the start. You may not remember it, but we were supposed to be married on the day you lost your memory. You parents brought you to New York and I never saw you again. The pain had almost killed me but I have recovered. I went on with my life and eventually met another man. I have committed myself to him but I know, deep within my heart, it is you whom I want to spend the rest of my life with.
Then you came to my life again and it tears my heart because I know, no matter how much I love you, I can’t stay with you in Rio forever for there is someone waiting for me. But every time you sing, every time I hear your soft voice, it made me love you even more. And the more I want to stay with you, the harder it is to let go. I just want you to remember that I never regret I’ve met you again. For those short moments I spend with you are the happiest moments of my life.
I wish I would meet you in another life, if it really exists. Another life and another world, where nothing matters except the two of us and our love. Where we can love each other forever without worrying about other people and without hurting them.
Nate, I will always love you, always and forever. Always remember that.
I folded the paper and put it in my pocket. Tears were streaming down my face as my memory slowly comes back. Yes, I remember everything.
“Always and forever”.
The time when we were lying in my rooftop and watch the stars, the time when we would dance in my terrace without music but only with the beat of our hearts, the night when I kissed her goodbye before our wedding day, I clearly remember them all.

I immediately rushed to the airport. My heart race as I went out the taxi and move inside a famous airport in Brazil. I asked a teller and discovered that her plane had left 30 minutes ago. I collapsed on the nearest chair. Tears were rolling down my face as my head spin. I don’t know what to do next. I just found myself boarding a plane going to the Philippines. It was so sudden but I don’t mind it. I can’t live without her. That’s all I know….

 

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