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Always and Forever – Part 6

Always and Forever – Part 6

by December 3, 2014 0 comments

(Lindsey)
I slowly put the phone in the cradle. The place where we had first met each other. You certainly know that. Oh my God, his memory came back. I shuddered at the thought. Tears roll down my face as I get my sweater at the closet. As I went down the stairs, my mom saw me.
“Are you going out with David?” she smiled at me.
“No…I mean yes.” I move as fast as I could towards the door so she wouldn’t notice my teary eyes.
“Lindsey?” she called out. I stopped, still facing the door.” Are you okay?”
I opened the door and said, “Don’t worry mom. I’m alright, “then walked to my car.

Cold winds were blowing as I walk along the park. Memories of the past were flashing on my mind. The time when Nathan and I first met, I would never forget that. I was sitting on a concrete bench crying for my best friend, Andrea. She met an accident that night and I visited her on the hospital. The doctors said that it was too late to save her life. She was my friend since I was in primary grade and it hurts so much to see her dying.
I can’t stand the feeling anymore. I collapsed on the nearest bench and cried. Then, he came. He offered me his handkerchief and we talk for a while. We became friends later on and fell deeply in love with each other.
Nathan was sitting on a bench when I came. He stood up as he saw me. There is something in his eyes that is beyond pain and sorrow. I just can’t figure it out.
“Lindz…you came”
He gently hugged me. I put my arms around him and pull him closer to me. Tears roll down our eyes as we cried together.
“Your memory’s back.” I said through our embrace.
“Yeah…I love you so much Lindz.”
“I know, and I love you too. “Then, I faced him. “What is it? What are you going to tell me?”
He took a deep breath and look into my eyes. “I want you to postpone your marriage. Just a year-and a half“
“What”? Are you crazy? I can’t do that Nate.”
“Please… I’m only asking you for a year and a half. He can marry you then. Please… stay with me for just a year and a half.” He said, pleadingly in front of me.
I think, it was the hardest part of my life. I gather up all my strength and pull myself away from him. “I’m so sorry Nathan. I…I can’t do that.” I then turned and move away as fast as I could before my heart betrays me. My mind tells me to go but my heart wanted to embrace him and runaway with him.

Before I got into my car, I heard his voice for the last time. He said the words I longed to hear from him for almost five years.” I love you Lindz, always and forever”

***

I cried that night as I returned to my room. I can’t believe that I’m going to suffer the pain of losing him again. It was unbearable and much worse. Then I get his picture from my drawer and said, “Goodbye Nate.”

David invited me to go out one night. I wasn’t feeling well that time but I accepted his invitation.
“Where are we?” I asked as he parked his car.
“You’ll see.” He smiled at me and took my hand,” you’ll love it, I promise.”
He helped me out of the car and hand in hand, we walk to the most expensive restaurant in town.
I suddenly felt very ill. My head is spinning and I fall on David’s arms.
“Lindsey? What’s the matter?” he asked, panicked stricken.
I wanted to answer him but I was so dizzy to utter a word.

I woke up in the hospital bed with David who’s sitting on a nearby chair. I touched his hands and then he looked at me.
“Hey… what are you feeling?” he asked.
“I’m okay. I’m sorry David. Maybe I was just stress out.” I said getting up from the bed.
The doctor entered the room smiling to both of us.” Is she your wife?” he asked David.
“No… she’s my fiancée” David answered the doctor, smiling gently at him.
“Well, you’d better hurry up.” The doctor said, “And you should take care of her from now”
“What do you mean doc? Is she ill? We thought it’s just a stress case.” David began to panic.
“Oh no, your fiancée is not ill. The both of you are going to have an angel.’ Then he turned to face me, still smiling. ”You are pregnant beautiful lady.”

The doctor’s news shocked the both of us. David said nothing on the way to our house. He accompanied me to my room. When he closed the door, I faced him and began to say with glimmering eyes,” David I…”
“It’s okay Lindz. I know. I was about to surprise you three days ago but I was the one who were surprised when I saw you at the park with him. Nathan, isn’t it?”
I began to sob in the bed.” I’m so sorry David. I didn’t mean to hurt you. I swear…I would understand if you’re mad at me and if you will cancel this marriage. I just want you to know that I didn’t mean to hurt you.”
He then moved towards me and gently pulled me to an embrace. Tears were rolling down his eyes as he said, “I love so much to be mad at you. I understand, don’t worry. I can’t live without you Lindz. If you will have me and take me as the father of your child, I still want to marry you.”

***
David and I began to prepare everything for our wedding. We were planning a simple wedding with just our family and friends as guests. Everyone was happy preparing for the wedding…except me.
Nathan always comes to my mind. Everything I do, everything I say, wherever I go, reminds me of him. It was just like before, preparing for our wedding. The only difference is that I’m going to marry David, not him.
I always caught David watching me and I was forced to fake a smile for him to think that everything’s okay even when it’s not.
I was cleaning my room the night before our wedding. Then as I opened my cabinet, I saw Nathan’s picture. I took and kissed his picture. Not knowing that David was just in the doorway. I cried and hugged his picture.
I was surprised when David’s hands rested on my shoulder. He embraced me and cried with me.

“I had no idea I was hurting you like this. I was so selfish…” he said.
“Dave…”
“I’m so sorry…” then he looked at me intently and said, “Let us cancel the marriage. I…I don’t want to hurt you like this.”
“But…”
“Don’t worry; I will always be here for you and your baby. I will take care of both of you, I promise.” He gently pulled the ring on my finger and left the room.

***
Everyone was surprised by our decision. They said that we are the perfect couple and it is a waste to end such perfect relationship. They were even surprised to found out that I’m pregnant. Still, David never left me. He took care of me and always on my side.
Without my knowledge, he was trying everything he can to find Nathan. He was looking for him for almost a month already but to no avail.

 

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